I posted last night on my personal facebook page that I've been wanting to reorganize my life and be able to do the things I am passionate about for my well-being and happiness.
Here's what I shared:
Bonding with baboo Peter's best friend Peachie last night really gave me a lot of insight and inspiration as to how I should budget my time making sure that I not only spend it on work but on things that enrich my life too... like my passions. Peachie is an artist. She loooves to draw and paint and make beautiful things! And what I really like about her is that she gets to incorporate her art in her daily activities. As for me, I have so many things I want to do (like play with my drums, guitar and keyboard, draw, make beaded accessories, sew, paint, do yoga, meditate, play with my tarot cards, surf, windsurf, travel, read my books, blog, plant vegetables, make crafts, sing, dance, act, etc.) but I am at a loss as to which ones I should accomplish first.... or which one is really my ultimate passion. All I know is I have to earn my keep and keep our house spick and span. So most of my 24 hours on a weekday are spent on house chores and work. But this has to change. While I re-organize my life and discern my real passion, here's an article I read that can help people like me who want to get started on anything. I hope this helps you too.
And with this, I say good night. Hoping to get back to a more normal body clock and more productive routine for health and fitness purposes. Sweet dreams, everyone!
And so today, I've once again started doing some of those passions of mine which includes being able to do my tarot card reading. I had a lot of questions and concerns which I hope my card for the day would be able to answer, or at least help enlighten my cluttered mind. I've just been out of a very long emotional rut (as evidenced by my lack of posts here for almost a year now); it's been almost a week since my hormones and moods have stabilized (and I am hoping it's for good); and it's been far too long since I last felt neutral and content. I want to make full use of it by being productive with my everyday activities despite the fact that on the financial front, my hubby and I had been duped by one of our insurance companies and we are talking about a huge sum of money. But we are not letting that bring us down. So back to my tarot card reading, I had a lot of questions like: What do I do with my life? How do I go about fixing my priorities? Is it right to pursue my new dreams? Etc.
As I was talking to God and my spirit guides about it, meditating hard on these questions, I picked my card - The Hanged Man.
In terms of ACTIONS, The Hanged Man is all about:
- having an emotional releaseaccepting what issurrendering to experienceending the strugglebeing vulnerable and opengiving up controlaccepting God's will
- turning the world aroundchanging your mindoverturning old prioritiesseeing from a new angleupending the old orderdoing an about-face
- suspending action
- pausing to reflectfeeling outside of timetaking time to just begiving up urgencyliving in the momentwaiting for the best opportunity
- being a martyrrenouncing a claimputting self-interest asidegoing one step back to go two steps forwardgiving up for a higher causeputting others first
The Hanged Man is one of the most mysterious cards in the tarot deck. It is simple, but complex. It attracts, but also disturbs. It contradicts itself in countless ways. The Hanged Man is unsettling because it symbolizes the action of paradox in our lives. A paradox is something that appears contradictory, and yet is true. The Hanged Man presents to us certain truths, but they are hidden in their opposites.
The main lesson of the Hanged Man is that we "control" by letting go - we "win" by surrendering. The figure on Card 12 has made the ultimate surrender - to die on the cross of his own travails - yet he shines with the glory of divine understanding. He has sacrificed himself, but he emerges the victor. The Hanged Man also tells us that we can "move forward" by standing still. By suspending time, we can have all the time in the world.
In readings, the Hanged Man reminds us that the best approach to a problem is not always the most obvious. When we most want to force our will on someone, that is when we should release. When we most want to have our own way, that is when we should sacrifice. When we most want to act, that is when we should wait. The irony is that by making these contradictory moves, we find what we are looking for. -The Hanged Man
It is so true that we control by letting go. Before, whenever I'd think about the big money that we lost or other troubles that seem so huge, my head would hurt and I would lose the will to wake up. It happened to my husband too. He'd have these panic attacks and terrible migraines I thought I'd need to bring him to the hospital! It's unhealthy and it's been controlling our emotions, our moods, our disposition in life. When I let it go and told my husband to just let it go, things got better emotionally and mentally. We're still in a financial rut but it seems more manageable now. We are both standing still and we are keeping our emotions in check so we can move forward from the situation.
Furthermore, according to the Tarot Bible by Sarah Bartlett: