That Which Does Not Kill Me Can Only Make Me Stronger

Being happy has always been one of my life's greatest pursuits. There are times when it's challenging and there are moments when it's as effortless as breathing fresh air. The past day or two though, it has come to my attention that a few individuals who I used to respect and look up to betrayed me in ways that I never imagined. It sent me to a roller coaster ride of painful emotions and my pursuit to happiness has once again been challenged. I got sick which I tried to not to nourish, I went about my usual tasks and even ran errands in another city as I mustered all the physical and emotional strength I can gather within me. Eventually, I gave in, fell into a momentary depression and slept it all away. 

Yesterday was the toughest day. I turned to my spirit guides and guardian angels for guidance through my tarot cards. I did my card reading for the day and I picked up The Magician. 

The Cups in My Daily Tarot Reading

Unbeknownst to many, an overwhelming sense of sadness, disappointment and depression came over me last Monday and Tuesday. I won't describe the details anymore. Suffice it to say that I had bloodshot eyes and couldn't breathe properly during those 2 dramatic days and the negativity was brought about by resurfacing issues from my past. Thank God for my very patient and understanding hubby I was able to survive it. But really, I've had it! It was time to move on and I don't wanna be imprisoned by them anymore.

So I exercised, I ate right, I stopped myself from smoking (I'm on my 6th cigarette-free day now), I read my Happiness book, I watched Friends reruns and laughed my heart out until the laughter felt genuine and real. Wednesday night came and while Peter and I were hanging out at our lanai, a neighbor of ours dropped by, we had a chat, and I felt genuinely happy for his visit. Then I remembered the card I picked out that afternoon when I did my tarot reading: Eight of Cups


It was only until after I reflected on its meaning that I realized how apt the card was with my current situation.