So anyway, I consulted my Spirit Guides about it through my Tarot Card. I got a major arcana card, which just proves that what I'm dealing with right now is no simple matter. It's not as mundane as the usual answers I get from my usual requests (things like should I go to this & that event? ...should I wear these clothes? ..should I get out of the house? ...should I travel at this time? etc...). The card that I've drawn --- THE WORLD --- is actually telling me something a lot deeper and more important:
The World is a card which represents completion.
A major element of happiness is wholeness - the sense that everything is working together in harmony. Not in a static way, but with dynamic balance. Involvement is also important. To be happy, we must feel connected - engaged with what is around us. There is also accomplishment - knowing that we have goals and are moving toward them successfully. When all these elements come together, we feel fulfilled and blessed.
The World represents these moments and all that goes into them. In readings, it is a very positive sign that you are in a position to realize your heart's desire. What that is for you depends on the situation, but it will always feel great. Remember, though, that Card 21 is a symbol of active contribution and service.
On the other hand, looking at the more positive side of the situation, and despite the fact that I have a million small wants and desires, I actually only have a handful of big goals. Slowly, with the little free time that I have left every day, I will continue taking steps to successfully realize these goals of mine, no matter how big or impossible they may seem for me sometimes. What I need to do is to keep doing what I'm doing (active contribution and service like what the card says) and in time, I'll find myself basking in my true happiness. To hold the World in my hands, I must give myself to it, even if it means doing the things I don't particularly like. When all these elements come together, then I'd feel fulfilled and blessed.