I have been thinking about quitting one of my more regular virtual assistant jobs since the start of this year. The flexible schedule, however, kept me from pulling the trigger since I was still enjoying it. Every time I'd do a tarot reading, I'd pick up similar cards that tell me the same thing --- to pursue other things where my heart really is. However, being the kind of person who will do so many things all at the same time, as long as she can do them, I normally won't say no to any opportunity. Then finally, the flexible schedule I was allowed was taken away from me. A part of me was considering going back to regular working hours but it didn't feel quite right. So after drafting two kinds of email replies, I sent the one that says I'm resigning.
It was after I clicked the send button that I rushed downstairs, went to our zen garden, and opened my tarot cards. It's been a long while since I last touched these cards. Normally, I'd do a reading first before I decide on anything. But this time around, I wanted to take full responsibility for my action. So I resigned first, then read my tarot cards after. Through meditation, I talked to my spirit guides and guardian angels. I told them that what I needed at this point in my life is just the truth. Did I do the right thing? Should I regret my decision? I didn't want to be lectured. I just want to hear the truth. So with quite trembling hands, I picked up a card and got Ten of Swords. It still shocks me every time I'd pick this card, which is not very often.
Despite the way it looks, the Ten of Swords is actually a lucky card. It signifies the end of a cycle and the birth of a new one. How appropriate! The moment this realization dawned on me, I felt calm. Attitude is what's important when people draw this card. I may have let go of an opportunity but I am seizing so many more and this is just the beginning. So thank you, spirit guides and guardian angels. I know you've urged me to do this a long, long time ago. But as you know me, I'd always need a major push. It's just the way I'm built, I guess. I always take calculated risks. I may seem flighty and carefree to most, but I am to a certain degree still careful and cautious. So I'm just so relieved to know that this really feels right.
Now what? Well, I've got a couple of investments in the works and some projects planned. But for now, I shall rest and enjoy my time. God knows I've been working too hard. ^_^